| friend: | why did you do that? |
| me: | i thought it would help. |
| friend: | how? |
| me: | i just need a feeling of something i can call home. Or someone. |
| friend: | did it help? |
| me: | Yes! ... ... No, actually. |
| friend: | why? |
| me: | .... ... it isn't my home anymore. |
| friend: | that's what i've been waiting to hear. |
| ( I'll repeat it in my head everytime it happens again.) |
Just came back from 8-days vacation in Vietnam last week. As much as i’m having fun and feel absolutely grateful, i feel relieved that the trip was over. I’ll split the details when I feel like writing it.
One important thing I learned though, don’t travel with your boyfriend/girlfriend unless you’re ready. It needs a lot of maturity, and turns out we haven’t reach that level.
End up it takes a lot of energy and patience and almost cost us the relationship.
@1 year ago| me: | I've been thinking about what i want to do with my life, and I'm lost. I'm almost 24 and I'm still not sure about my life. |
| X: | That's sounds cliche. Do you like what you do now? |
| me: | My job? I don't hate it. but I feel dull. I feel like stuck in a place. Should i found another job? |
| X: | Whoa. Wait. Not that fast. Slow down. What happen? |
| me: | Right now, I feel content. I feel enough. But sometimes, enough is not enough. But what about next year? Next 2 years? I'm doing okay, but I don't want to be just okay. I want to be great. |
| X: | Do what you like and put 150% of yourself in it, then you'll be great. Do you like what you do now? |
| me: | It sounds good in words, but it is actually really hard, you know? Even like answering your first and only question, I'm not sure if i really like it. If that's what i supposed to do, i don't know. |
| X: | You have to go back to square one. Working is a way for you to grow, to give positive impact for yourself and other people around you. ... And of course the money for living. Is that a good-enough reason for you? |
| me: | It's good enough, but it doesn't mean I have to do what I'm doing right now to achieve that. I grow up believing that i can be whatever i want to be, but what if I actually made a wrong choice? What if I can actually be better doing something else? |
| X: | You have to know what you want first, then you can be good at it. Start finding out what you like about your job, and work on it. Take your time. I know you can be whatever you want. |
| me: | not everyone has the privileges to choose what they want, you know. to just quit and start searching, or whatever. |
| X: | You have enough privileges. You're still young, not-married, no kids, no liabilities, so actually you have quite a spacious room for errors. |
| me : | That doesn't mean i can just jump off the bridge. |
| X: | That's suicidal. You have the brain. Think first. |
| me: | I have to know what i want to do first, then I'll decide. |
| X: | Yes. |
| me: | I have to know what I like first, then i know what i want to do. |
| X: | Yes. |
| me: | I have to know what I don't like first, then I can sort it out and find things that I like. |
| X: | That's the other way around, but yes. |
| me: | Then I'll start with doing things that I think I might like, then I know if I actually like it. |
| X: | That would be a good start. |
| me: | So instead of looking for a new career path, some new hobbies will do, right? |
| X: | I believe so. |
| me: | Then maybe I'll start writing. |
you try to remember certain things in your past,
certain things that should had been quite important, rather memorable, and real major in your life.
this certain things has somehow, in a way, created who you are right now, so it should not be that easy to be forgotten, right?
this certain things, you thought you will cherish forever, as a bittersweet memoir of something you used to have,
something you used to believe,
something you used to do,
something you used to dream,
but not anymore.
but then you forgot. not in a snap, though, more like sugar in a cup of tea, dissolving slowly.
you never realized, until one day you wake up, you try to remember how if felt like, how it looked like, how it used to be, and you failed.
you failed big.
maybe because you’ve changed, maybe because it’s actually not as unforgettable as you thought it would be, or maybe you moved on.
or maybe you’ll never know why, they just gone.
@1 year agoBeing cool is nice, being naturally cool is even more.
But being honest to yourself is courage.
And that’s cool enough.
“And, you are welcome.”
Love and kisses,
The Creative Director
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It is the good morning greeting from your loved one.
It is catching the bus just in time.
It is getting inside the building just before it rains.
It is 5 minutes before work and you’re drinking a hot coffee.
It is when you ring some call centre and the line get through and you can talk to a human and they’re actually can be helpful.
It is when you have lunch on time.
It is when you know that your colleague is getting married, after listening to their stories for months.
It is when your battery hasn’t run out after the day is over and you can still play games on the bus.
It is when you meet someone you know on the street.
It is a long chat with your old friends.
It is a new episode of your favorite tv show, ready to be downloaded.
It is the noisy laugh you hear when you call your loved ones.
It is the daily chat with your housemates, the cooking session, the weekend plans.
It is the end of the day, and finally you can rest.
@1 year ago with 4 notes
you can say whatever you want, but if you’re not going to prove that the things you say are true, your words don’t mean a thing.
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